So what?

It was not a good morning this morning.

New rules have been implemented. Yet, i dont think it's a good thing to me at least i strongly feel it now.
Im thinking to lessen the burden of others but i have no idea what's in their mind.

A simple thing can become an issue.

Everything has to be balanced out! BALANCE!! That's the critical plus difficult part.
Doing more doesn't really reflect that you are helping them! In fact, issue is arising.

Doing less doesn't mean you can escape from the issue. Questions are popping out..Fingers start pointing to you!

I would not say Im here to please you but i just do my job since you are not doing yours.

I dont care! I wish i could!!!!

Enjoy my weekend!!!

FSU

WTF!
Being scolded for NO REASON!!!
Please use your butt brain to think even its butt!! Fully utilize it!!

Was acknowledged by my staff that he was abnormal.
But i never thought this would happen on me!

Thank you for scolded me until I wanted to dig a hole!
Thank you for humiliated me in the public!
Last but not least, thank you for not sending regards to my mother!

I keep telling myself that he has mental illness. I should have not keep this in heart. Yet, it takes some time for me to recover.

SHIT YOU TO THE MAX!

KJ

I felt bad now..
Just realised i didnt wish my fren..erm..im so sorry~~
Missed out the phone reminder the other day and no notification in fb(nowadays rely so much on fb birthday celebration).
Trying my very best to look for the birthdate and realised it was over!!><
Gift is always on hand. Thus, it shouldnt be a problem.

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Shall i say you are enlightening my day!
Didnt expect to receive any message from you recently.
I shall and should treat it as extraordinary normal case. Sarcastic.
ITs just so so so so normal.

But with that, i seemed cheerful with just that..

Kent ah kent...

Kiss the Night

Its already 2pm.
However, im awake now. Not to say that im not sleepy. However, i wanted to blog so much.
Wanted to iron my clothes tomorrow. Anyhow, i've decided to get it done by today.
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Thinking to blog in English. Finally, I've changed my mind.

先讲生日吧。
真的没什么特别。。我也想让自己忙到忘记自己的生日。
想要得到的都没收到。。那么就算了吧。。想那么多只会伤身体。。（已经很伤了。。）

当我对你有要求时，代表我还对你有希望。
当我对你提出的问题不加以思索，就回以随便时， 就代表我不想再去理了。。（可是我总是败心软。。总不能完全做到。）
所以一直以来，我都采取不闻不问，不干涉的政策。

最近笑容变少了，脾气变差了，话变少了更不在话下了。
还真不清楚自己几时才能走出阴霾。。

I

I would claim that YESTERDAY was a 'What A Day'!.
I could smell something fishy early in the morning and i would say my sixth sense was coming true.
I could foretell.
I was thinking was that bringing my luck? I guess im too superstitious. But i have to admit that it's quite true.
What i was thinking these few days is that they do make a difference and (at that point of time) they deserve it. That's the difference i could spot.
I used to proud of certain matters. But bear in the mind that you reap what you sow. No pain no gain. Everything has a reason behind it.

Early

Its raining heavily out there.
Argh...so spicy.....................(fyi, i just finished taking my dinner. Why didnt the chef listen to me!! i said less spicy!)
Today's training was tough because i had to start from scratch. But i think it's kinda fun if really can master it. What's so excited is that there will be a simulation test next week!!!!!!!
I wish i could practice at home!! Unfortunately, i have no access to it!
Today was the earliest day i've gone out since last week. I was so excited when i saw there were ample of parkings! But really have to go out early.
I always have no idea why people keep saying that they are sleepy after lunch. And now i know the reason because i experienced the same situation now!! OMG.

Till then.

Newbie

Just finished taking my bath. Refresh! Gonna take my dinner soon.

Im kinda looking forward to tomorrow because i've just got my new lappie!! Manager told me that everyone (kinda exaggerating here..haha) was excited for my lappie as most of them are using desktop instead of lappie! Plus, mine is the shiny new lappie!! Even my manager had the old version one..wuakaka..To be honest, i wish i could have a desktop because i want a larger screen and i do not need to pack-unpack the laptop everyday!!!

But tomorrow's training is going to be a serious and tough one. Hopefully everything goes smooth.

I went out early in the morning and it's almost the same time as yesterday. However, i was later more than half an hour compared to yesterday! WHAT'S WRONG here??!!
I thought i could get an indoor parking since i was early! Thing turned out to be the other side.
I had to park open parking! Luckily rain stopped when i went back. Or else i would curse gao gao..:(

Enjoy your dinner!! Im having mine soon. :))

milo

Do you have monday blues?
To me, im quite enjoy today.
Went out early this morning yet traffic jam was prevailing. Is it a culture which KL people has to be caught in the jam during working hour?
It was raining early in the morning. Luckily, I've got a parking in the building today. Pity my little white which is going to be exposed to the sun quite often in future.
I bought my milo to office today and realised that there is milo in the office. ==
Thanks to my coll who let me know.
Basically, i've always hear the positive sides of the company and it does encourage me to achieve higher. I would say that most people are friendly and helpful. Playing around other than working seriously when necessary.
I left the office on time and yet the traffic was terrible! What so excited was that i did not need to dabao for my dinner!! Went to makan bitterguard soup in puchong! yeah..how best if life can be relax everyday! haha

Gotta sleep early later as im kinda sleepy while blogging.
bonjour~

Not a fool

It's Friday night!
I hope every day would be a Friday!
Just settled myself after a whole long day.
Slept for three hours yesterday and woke up at 3AM!! Really couldn't sleep well because was afraid that would be overslept.
Went out before 7 and back home after 8! Awesome!!!
Thru and forth needed 1+ hour! That's KL!!
All in all, today was quite fun. Never thought of such cases would happen.
Met my fren during the briefing and primary schoolmates in the department!
There are many things to cope up and i think things will go smooth after i manage to befriend with them!! YES!! I CAN DO IT!!

Gonna sleep early tonight due to sleep deprivation.

Dont fool

Good morning.
Today is another brand new day!
But guess what, i think im too nervous and pressure as well. Had been warned by many people that not to be late and wake up early. Thus, i woke up real early!! Dint sleep well for two consecutive nights!
Is going to dress up soon. Hope everything is going smooth.

Happie April Fool!

No cloud

Trying to wake up as early as possible even though it's a Sunday!
Woke up with a joyful mood and it's definitely will be a good Sunday!!
Some dark clouds had been cleared yesterday and there was always reason behind it. However, i did not manage to make it clear on the first hand and hence couldnt help myself but just think and think about it in the beginning.
Been to several places to look for makan and ended up eating porridge.
It's definitely a new record for me as i took my dinner at 1AM!
Initially, thought could get some nice food in Maluri. However, things went haywire. Next station was Kajang satay. But couldnt spot Sri Malaysia satay!! Then passed by Putrajaya and Puchong and eventually back to Old Klang Road.
It seemed there were much more things to talk about. Yet, we couldnt catch up with the time.

That's all for the update.

Bonjour~

1152

Tick tok tick tok..it's gonna strike 12 soon. Yet, it seems like im doing nothing.
Have to hit the bed very soon as im kinda sleep already.
Dont feel like talking for the whole day due to sleep deprivation and some personal stuff.
I would say it's been improving since last week. But i felt like there is "something"in the middle.
Hoping not to give a damn. But i just cant.
Sometimes, just hope not to care so much. At least, it wont be to the extent of bothering me all the time. When i realised that i was kept in the box, i was upset. Hence, knowing much is not a good thing for me. Because the more i care, the more i want to know. Once you don't give damn or give less, it's just so hurt. ==
I admit that im greedy. Wanting more all the time.
Expectation leads to disappointment when something is not up to your expectation.

5.22am

Good morning.

Why am i awake at this time?

Talked to my friends yesterday and some questions arouse such as should i go for a course. But i would say that it's not my priority at this moment because i wish to have on-the-job-training.
At the same time, i was wondering did i make a wrong decision four years ago. But i dont think that i regret for making such decision. At least, it's all by my own.

23? It does mean a lot to me. I believe that it's gonna be a year full of decision making, a year with turning points.
However, i could not see where it steers yet. Life isn't easy. I always believe that it's always tough at the beginning. Work it up and reap what you sow.

Taking things in heart has never been a good thing. At least, it hurts sometimes. I wish i could be big-hearted. But it never happened at this stage. 'Be yourself'. That's me.

Too many things in the list. But where is my motivation?
It seems that i have not geared up yet. Asking me about the timing. Im not sure. I wish i would have known about it.

Smiley face doesnt carry a joyful me.
That's what the best description about me recently.
It's awkward when blurt out. Get used to the time when i keep silent.

Silent means i dont give a damn anymore like it used to be.
Expectation is the root of disappointment. I care because i expect something. It leads to disappointment when things are not up to expectation. True enough.
Thus, i will not question further even though i used to care about it. Excitement has drastically reduced as it used to be. Everything has minimized.

Shall i take this as a transition period? I would say yes and no. No because it seems like im giving myself and excuse for escaping from the reality. Yes because it seems like im waiting for another stage which im not sure about yet.

*yawn*


~Listening to this while typing this piece: What if~

I often wonder just how can it be
But everytime I think about it
Seems impossible to me
I wanna touch you, call out your name
Would you be my love, would you be my friend
Would you feel the same

What if wishes all came true
And each one had a star
That would keep it shining brightly
However near or far

What if a miracle appeared
And heaven was here for us to see
Oh what if you, were to fall in love with me

I imagine, a picture in my mind
You and me we’ll be together
Together for all time
Like in the fairytales
Where everything comes real
Would you take my hand, would you understand
Just how I feel?

Its not impossible Its not impossible
It happens each day
People find each other
Fall in love with one another
It happens this way
Its not impossible Its not impossible
I don’t believe
If I close my eyes
If I make a wish
You’d be loving me
What if wishes all came true?

WHAT A DAY!?

ARGH!! i really need to shout!!!
My iphone4 has gone!!!! WTH!!!
"WHAT A DAY!"
All the friend appointments came in a day. Eventually, i ended up meeting none of them. :(
Thought could experience my first ever live match with my first ever free tix. Eventually, ended up no where with lotsa worries.
That's my Sunday. How beautiful it was!

Dont protest on Sunday!!

Wat a tiring and unfruitful Sunday!
I was so ecstatic because i thought i will be able to hit Uniqlo today and maybe pay a visit to Kinokuniya as well. But ended up, i headed to Mid Valley again! It has been three consecutive weeks that i spent my lovely Sunday in MV. FML.
Was stuck in the jam for 1 hours which i was late for my appointment and ended up i had to change the venue due to the massive jam.
It was my first time encountering such a terrible jam! Caught in the jam since i was in Seremban highway and all the way to KL. Initially, i thought i could avoid the jam by alternative. However, all the routes to KL would be ended up in a same result, that is, JAM!! FML!!

Here is the clip about the protest.

LEARN them

Came across this article in cari. Meaningful and they are the way to solve the remedy. To build a stronger me.

作為女生，这些话应该背起来，天天複習一遍!

1.收到甜言蜜語的短信，記得微笑，然後刪除。
2.想辦法努力賺錢，而不是如何省錢。
3.憤怒的時候，數到30，再說話。
4.喜歡的東西自己努力買，不要指望別人送。
5.少喝果汁多吃水果，少吃零食多喝水，少坐多站，少想多看，少說多做，少懷舊多憧憬。

6.永遠不會再有第二個男人像爸爸這樣愛你，所以最愛的男人當然是爸爸。
7.不要24小時都想念同一個人。可以分一點給家人和朋友。
8.不要認為找個有錢男人就什麼都有了。世界上年輕的女孩子，多的就像貨櫃上的可樂，喝不喝都無所謂。
9.吃下去的就堅決不再吐出來，所以吃之前要想清楚。
10.寂寞的時候，不要聽慢歌，懷舊或者膩死在網上，站起來做運動或者去找朋友八卦。

11.看透的時候，假裝沒看透。
12.工作的你，和遊手好閒的你，絕對不是同一個人。
13.做好防曬，但記得適當地曬曬太陽。心情也會進行光合作用。真的。
14.真正看中的東西就買，不要借錢，想清楚之後再決定，決定之後就不要後悔
。
15.銀行卡的密碼不要用男友的生日。

16.永遠不向從前的戀人訴苦。
17.出門之前，根據步行的時間和強度考慮要穿的鞋子。
18.要讀好書,陶冶情操,提高品位。
19.可以淘便宜的衣服，但記得自己的品位比這個價位高。
20.桌上的護膚品永遠比化妝品多，貴，好，對於女人來說外養不如內調。

21.養成寫日記的習慣，哪怕隻言片語。
22.可以不認同，但學會尊重。
23.注重內心，但不忽略外表。
24.做不了決定的時候，讓時間幫你決定。如果還是無法決定，做了再說。寧願犯錯，不留遺憾!
25.打電話的時候記得微笑，對方聽的見。

26.每月記帳，每月儲蓄。
27.瞭解潮流，但不必跟風。
28.看起來多大年齡，就有多大年齡。
29.相信愛情和mr.right的存在，在此之前也不拒絕和mr.wrong們分享人生。
30.如果發短資訊給你喜歡的人，他不回。不要再發

31.不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑鬱，這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然，偶爾傻一下有必要，人生不必時時聰明
32.穿有質感的衣服，找有品質的男朋友。他不一定很有錢，但是一定要能讓你有安全感和開心。
33.如果決定離開一個人，行動要快一點，快刀斬亂麻；如果決定愛上一個人，時間拉長一點，看清楚是否適合你。
34.閒情時候自己煮花茶煮咖啡喝，或者做茶點吃，放一段柔情音樂，翻閱幾頁好書，然後睡個懶覺，快哉。
35.學會承受痛苦。有些話，適合爛在心裡，有些痛苦，適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過，你成長了，自己知道就好。
36.任何場合，保持應有的涵養。學會說謝謝、辛苦您、對不起。做錯了事情要懂得道歉和改過。

Windy

凉凉的风，一阵阵吹向驱壳 （好烂 哦！哈哈）
很想享受一整个下午，把自己沉浸在电视剧里。可是又不想浪费了一天的假期。所以就出去走走，和朋友吹水。心情会比较好。恕我不懂宅女的心情。
刚才在打扫时，突发奇想，（也不会太奇妙啦。。只是要时时刻刻提醒自己）对别人不要要求过高，也算是疼自己的方法吧！ 要知足！

part2:
ganjiong-ing.
Gotta send out my application now!
Good luck to me!!

rc

依摩帖。。
最近情绪犹如过山车般，时而高涨时而低落。 但低落的情绪远远超越澎湃的。
固折的我，要慢慢学会放开。
那可是需要很大的突破。
凡是不要看的太重， 生活会好过一点。。

Sick

这几天脾气变得很暴躁。。
暴躁只为了琐碎的事。。
也变得不会控制情绪。。
心情复杂，思绪杂乱。
不开心是因为不满意。。

miscellaneous

Feeling tired now.
A bit stomachache. ><
Meeting shingu today and finally both of us made it!!! I think it has been quite a few months, To be exactly, it shud be half a year since we last met during our convo!!!
Time flies and hopefully we will be meeting each other very soon.
Splurged on the prezzies today. Really need to eat roti liao!! HAHA
Ended up, nothing much for myself but others.