5.22am

Good morning.

Why am i awake at this time?

Talked to my friends yesterday and some questions arouse such as should i go for a course. But i would say that it's not my priority at this moment because i wish to have on-the-job-training.
At the same time, i was wondering did i make a wrong decision four years ago. But i dont think that i regret for making such decision. At least, it's all by my own.

23? It does mean a lot to me. I believe that it's gonna be a year full of decision making, a year with turning points.
However, i could not see where it steers yet. Life isn't easy. I always believe that it's always tough at the beginning. Work it up and reap what you sow.

Taking things in heart has never been a good thing. At least, it hurts sometimes. I wish i could be big-hearted. But it never happened at this stage. 'Be yourself'. That's me.

Too many things in the list. But where is my motivation?
It seems that i have not geared up yet. Asking me about the timing. Im not sure. I wish i would have known about it.

Smiley face doesnt carry a joyful me.
That's what the best description about me recently.
It's awkward when blurt out. Get used to the time when i keep silent.

Silent means i dont give a damn anymore like it used to be.
Expectation is the root of disappointment. I care because i expect something. It leads to disappointment when things are not up to expectation. True enough.
Thus, i will not question further even though i used to care about it. Excitement has drastically reduced as it used to be. Everything has minimized.

Shall i take this as a transition period? I would say yes and no. No because it seems like im giving myself and excuse for escaping from the reality. Yes because it seems like im waiting for another stage which im not sure about yet.

*yawn*


~Listening to this while typing this piece: What if~

I often wonder just how can it be
But everytime I think about it
Seems impossible to me
I wanna touch you, call out your name
Would you be my love, would you be my friend
Would you feel the same

What if wishes all came true
And each one had a star
That would keep it shining brightly
However near or far

What if a miracle appeared
And heaven was here for us to see
Oh what if you, were to fall in love with me

I imagine, a picture in my mind
You and me we’ll be together
Together for all time
Like in the fairytales
Where everything comes real
Would you take my hand, would you understand
Just how I feel?

Its not impossible Its not impossible
It happens each day
People find each other
Fall in love with one another
It happens this way
Its not impossible Its not impossible
I don’t believe
If I close my eyes
If I make a wish
You’d be loving me
What if wishes all came true?